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I love it when men apologize for stupid mistakes.

It makes it worth trying again.

I’m not used to being dumped.

Josh broke up with me. He comes over Monday night and says we need to talk. He’s always been confused and conflicted and I’ve told him that I’m okay with him needing to figure things out, but apparently it got to the point where he thought that wasn’t fair to me so he either needed to figure it out or break up with me. I’m tired of feeling like someone is making decisions for me.

I want him.

I had wine and brownies for dinner last night. All I want to do is lay in bed and sleep and hug the stuffed monkey he won for me at the fair.

I hate feeling like this sad little girl.

After he left that night I cried myself to sleep. I kept waking up cause I was dreaming that he was crawling in bed and holding me from behind, telling me that it’d be okay, but he wasn’t there. I always woke up alone.